20 March 2006
This is special.
I can't believe everything is really as perfect as all this. That nothing could happen to wreck this, and that you really feel the same way.
This sort of thing doesn't happen to me. Something is always going wrong with my life. I am still so scared of what could be next.
This sort of thing doesn't happen to me. Something is always going wrong with my life. I am still so scared of what could be next.
12 March 2006
December promise you gave unto me, December whispers of treachery.
I want nothing more than to tell you how much I love you, how long I've loved you. But I'm so afraid. I don't want it to change things, and I'm so afraid it could. It's the same reason I'm not ready for a lot of things. I want things to stay perfect, just the way they are. I know that is impossible, but I want it so badly.
Nothing horrible will happen to us. Nothing horrible could ever happen to us. Everything is working well for us because this relationship is perfect, and it's meant to be this way. This is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and maybe to you, too, and it can never turn sour.
I want to be with you every second of every day. I wish that you never had to leave, that I never had to work. I want to blow my savings on spending time with you, but that would be impossible. I'm with you every day, and yet I still miss you terribly when you go.
Today was a day filled with magic. Every time I looked at you, it was as though something inside us connected, and we couldn't pull our eyes apart. Just thinking about makes me shiver.
I wish that you were here right now. I want so badly to lie in your arms forever, without a care in the world except each other.
But I still worry if this isn't too much, too soon. We've been going together for only a short while, and we've been together every single day... I wonder if this is a good way to start out.
We've waited so long for this, though, both of us. Maybe this really is perfect. Maybe this can really last forever.
I worry that you will get tired of me. I've found the first thing to truly frighten me about us, and the first thing to annoy me about you. I'm certain you've done the same. I wonder if it's enough...?
Nothing horrible will happen to us. Nothing horrible could ever happen to us. Everything is working well for us because this relationship is perfect, and it's meant to be this way. This is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and maybe to you, too, and it can never turn sour.
I want to be with you every second of every day. I wish that you never had to leave, that I never had to work. I want to blow my savings on spending time with you, but that would be impossible. I'm with you every day, and yet I still miss you terribly when you go.
Today was a day filled with magic. Every time I looked at you, it was as though something inside us connected, and we couldn't pull our eyes apart. Just thinking about makes me shiver.
I wish that you were here right now. I want so badly to lie in your arms forever, without a care in the world except each other.
But I still worry if this isn't too much, too soon. We've been going together for only a short while, and we've been together every single day... I wonder if this is a good way to start out.
We've waited so long for this, though, both of us. Maybe this really is perfect. Maybe this can really last forever.
I worry that you will get tired of me. I've found the first thing to truly frighten me about us, and the first thing to annoy me about you. I'm certain you've done the same. I wonder if it's enough...?
